It was a sunny Saturday morning, and I had planned to go for a run along Tampa’s beautiful Bayshore balustrade and then go home and paint on my new 36” x 36” canvas, the first one of this size I had ever made. I could not find my iPod so I took my daughter’s. A soul-capturing song by Brett Dennen came on that I had never heard called “Who Do You Think You Are?” My best friend Tammy Thompson had insisted we download his album months earlier, but we had not yet listened to it. The song swept me up, and I ran along and played that song over and over. Brett sings:
“Who do you think you are? It’s the life you made. Don’t be afraid, of the hands you played.”
Running outside and listening to those words, I thought of the choices I have made in my life — they define who I am.
I thought of my present moment — If I think I am an artist, a painter, I should go for it. This is the hand I have chosen to play, it’s the life I am making, embrace it. One day this life will be over and I will “rise above the trees” and “see my life in photographs of faded memories,” and what do I want those photographs to look like? It’s my choice. What will the life I made look like?
The beauty of that song flushed over me and I chose at that moment to let go of my fears. I just completely opened up.
After my run, I was ready to go home and paint, but first I had one stop to make. I picked up my husband and my kids, and we drove downtown to the Kahwa Espresso Bar at Element in downtown Tampa. I had to meet and talk with the manager, Becca, about showing my paintings there in August.
I ordered a chai latte from Becca, and as I drank it, I showed her my paintings and we talked. Becca flashed her bright smile and her warm glow, and we agreed to display my paintings in Kahwa in August and to have a kick-off party on August 3. She asked me to call her the next day to confirm the plans.
I went home and painted, energized by my run and by the exciting news Becca and I had discussed. I put “Who Do You Think You Are” on repeat, and I let the brushes flow. I actually held a brush in each hand and painted two-handed. The whole experience felt like swimming through a beautiful energetic flow. There were no thoughts in my head, just the words of the song.
The next morning, I woke up and picked my painting up off the floor to look at it. My husband Brent told me he saw the Virgin Mary in profile in a veil in the middle left. I saw her too. To her right, I see a fetal image and to its right, I see a male person in the fetal position and to his right I see a large flowing wave.
To me, this is representative of the Virgin Mary, the baby Jesus, the man Jesus and the birth of humanity. On the bottom left, I see the heartbeats of life and in the bottom middle and right, I see umbilical and other cords.
I closed my eyes to meditate on the name of the painting. I heard the words “Tara” and “tantra” in my head, but it was so subtle I wasn’t sure if I really heard it, and I could not make any sense of those two words in relation to how I was interpreting my painting.
As I stood up, Brent asked, “Did you get anything?”
I replied, “I’m not sure. Let me google a couple of things,” all the while thinking, “the only thing I can think of with “Tara” is the property in “Gone With the Wind,” and that has nothing to do with my painting, and besides, I heard the pronunciation TAH-ra not TEH-ra.”
When I googled the word “Tara,” I was stunned to find that Tara is the “tantric meditation deity” of Buddhism, the goddess of compassion. In other words, Tara is to Buddhism what the Virgin Mary is to Christianity.
I understand that my conscious mind displayed the imagery in this painting through the prism of my experiential context as I was raised in the Catholic faith. But my subconscious or my superconscious interpreted the painting through the corresponding prism of the Buddhist understanding of the female aspect of humanity.
As I reflected on my painting and my own life experiences, my own views of the world’s religions crystallized for me. I have long tried to make sense of a world where many people are taught to believe the religion or philosophy they are born into is the only “right” one. In this way, independent thought and tolerance are not made priorities. Adherence to an established philosophy is paramount. This has always struck me as a odd because the truth is, we may hold our hopes, our faiths and our beliefs, but no one really knows the answer.
Not that religion and faith are not positive things. I know firsthand the power of ministry, the power of prayer. In fact, as Roni Sloman of Bella Prana Yoga and Meditation said recently,
“Human beings are just plain happier when they believe in something greater than themselves. It doesn’t matter what you call it, the human body was built to believe.”
So, here is what I have come to in my own personal views. I believe that whether you walk with Jesus, seek enlightenment with Buddha, worship God, Yahweh, Allah, Brahman, the Creator, a higher power by any other name, the Source or the Universe, it is all truly the same thing so long as it is done with the intention of love and compassion for the other people who live on this planet.
Like Ziggy Marley said, “Love is My Religion.” I have respect for all who believe, who have faith, who practice in any religion to the extent it is done in the name of love. I believe, have faith and will practice in everything that furthers love and compassion. In other words, I walk with Jesus, I seek enlightenment with Buddha, I worship a higher power by any name in the name of love.
And likewise, to the extent any religion or practice is used in the name of exclusion, repression or hate, I do not believe in or adhere to it.
I named my painting “Tara Mary Bodhisattva” to express my belief that we as a people should not separate ourselves on the basis of religion. I feel the goodness and love of all religions derive from the same thing. The more humanity unites in shared love and compassion, the higher our collective consciousness will be raised.
The Dalai Lama was recently quoted as saying:
“I am increasingly convinced that the time has come to find a way of thinking about spirituality and ethics beyond religion altogether.”
To me, this means that the faithful practitioners of the religions of the world should unite in the knowledge that the higher being, the good, the love they believe in derives from the same essence or shared energy. We are truly one and it is time to break down walls that separate and to move towards a shared understanding of that essence while maintaining respect for differing practices.
As Brett Dennen sings, who do we as human beings think we are as a people? If we don’t want to be afraid of the hands we play, we have to play the right hands. This is the life we make. These are our choices. Do we want to look back on our time on this planet, and realize that we chose to separate ourselves on the basis of religion or do we want to use our strong faiths, our beliefs in the name of love and shared consciousness?
After naming my painting “Tara Mary Bodhisattva,” later that day, Becca and I spoke to firm up the plans for the August 3 show.
This is when something truly amazing happened:
I told Becca I had made a new painting after meeting her the day before. I told her that I felt she was a part of my process because I went running listening to Brett Dennen’s song, I went to the coffee shop and she made me that chai latte that gave me energy and then I came home and painted. I told her I meditated on the name and heard Tara and tantra in my head and how that lead me to name my painting.
Becca listened to me, and then she said, “Ok, I have something to tell you.” She said,
“I used to work at a coffee shop in Amherst, Massachusetts called Rao’s, and I had a guru there named Dexter. Dexter always told me that I emanate the energy of the Green Tara, the goddess of compassion. It is so important in my life that I am having the Green Tara tattooed on my body. You need to know something about yourself. You pick up on other people’s energies.”
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I am going to summarize this the way I believe the Universe intended for me to hear this conversation:
Me: I named my painting “Tara Mary Bodhisattva.” I feel you were a part of my process, and I feel you gave me energy.
Becca: I emanate the energy of the Green Tara of Buddhism. I did give you my energy and you received it.
I take coincidences such as this as signs from the Universe that I am on the right path. I feel that the act of making “Tara Mary Bodhisattva” was a gift of clarity on a subject I have long pondered. I am thankful for that gift and want to return in some small measure that gift to someone else. As such, I will donate the entire proceeds of the sale of this painting to the Tampa Children’s Home.
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